I see only what I want to see

Is lyrics to a song suggested to me via Spotify. Because I watched another 'suggestion' via YouTube. That was Jewel's live performance at Woodstock 99 of her first hit Who Will Save Your Soul. Situational depression is a state of mind I find myself in from time to time. And I was experiencing one at my … Continue reading I see only what I want to see

Reasonable Objective Therapy

has come to this - drinking and making a wish. So it seems to me that the more things change - the more they stay the same. I've written a lot about writing and thinking, drinking, and therapy in this space. However, as far as I can tell to no avail. The collective psychosis continues. … Continue reading Reasonable Objective Therapy

PROZAC diary

Lauren Slater has been on Prozac since it burst on the scene in 1988. PROZAC diary (1998) is her book recounting the first ten years of the drug and how it affected and saved her life. That's not an exaggeration. She was twenty-five and suffering debilitating OCD (Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder). Slater had been hospitalized five times beginning … Continue reading PROZAC diary

The Delay Of Gratification Paradox

The delay of gratification paradox is, ultimately, about survival. Or, the self versus the other. Or, pleasure versus pain. OZARK is a Netflix original series I binged watched this weekend. Because I was alone, and (more likely) bored? Calling Dr. Hannon? In the pilot, S1E1, Marty Byrde, states: "... because you've resolved to work and … Continue reading The Delay Of Gratification Paradox

My Year-end Inventory

My Year-end Inventory is something I've been doing ever since I began journaling daily twenty years ago, in 1999. My journal began with a Christmas present from my father: Morning Pages Journal. I'll tell ya - neither he nor I had any idea the wildfire that simple gift would ignite. Twenty years ago today A … Continue reading My Year-end Inventory