My Apartment

is who I am. Or, more accurately, reflects who I've been since being born 73 years ago come this Thanksgiving. The apartment is small, one bedroom - just 800sq. feet. If I include the balcony, which I do. The balcony serves as garden, as well as a place for reading, rest, and contemplation. (Oh, and … Continue reading My Apartment →

Fall Frenzy 2022: Baseball

So now it begins in earnest: Fall Frenzy 2022, after all that nonsense during the COVID years. I'm excited - the New York Yankees are in their usual spot, positioned to make a run at a world championship. So is my brother's team, the LA Dodgers. However, the Dodgers weren't always from Los Angeles, California. … Continue reading Fall Frenzy 2022: Baseball →

The Trauma Wake

The Early Years: 1963 - 1970For me, my Trauma Wake began in November of 1963, just days before my fourteenth birthday. Before that date, my life was pretty peachy. After President John F. Kennedy was shot and killed I began to drink, and quit going to church. I can't say if those events are related? … Continue reading The Trauma Wake →

Crazy Love: Depp and Heard

Recently I was asked to recommend five books on any subject of my choosing. I chose Personality. The list was for a new website, Shepherd.com, that aims to rival Goodreads for book lovers. Two books not on the list are Interpersonal Diagnosis and Treatment of Personality Disorders and Crazy Love: Dealing With your Partner's Problem Personality. … Continue reading Crazy Love: Depp and Heard →

The Last Dream

The last dream I had was March 17, 2022. It was about a friend, an old friend, one of my best friends. In the dream, he was digging a swimming pool foundation with a backhoe. As it came to pass, that was the night after he died. I had called three days before and he … Continue reading The Last Dream →

Man’s Search For Meaning

is ongoing and is getting to be a very crowed space. However, this post is mostly concerned with Viktor Frankl's best selling book about the World War Two Holocaust. In addition Frankl's Logotherapy. My provider, a clinical Psychologist, suggested I read this book. Because well lately, things have been grim. What follows are my thoughts, … Continue reading Man’s Search For Meaning →

Resistance to Truth

is almost always because of threat. Real or imagined to one's well-being. Naturally. Well-being being with regard to ones's health. Meaning ones's state of: 1) physical; 2) mental; 3) psychological; 4) emotional; 5) social; 6) economic. Anyone or all. Unfortunately the truth varies. There is short-term truth and long-term truth. In the short-term truth often … Continue reading Resistance to Truth →

I see only what I want to see

Is lyrics to a song suggested to me via Spotify. Because I watched another 'suggestion' via YouTube. That was Jewel's live performance at Woodstock 99 of her first hit Who Will Save Your Soul. Situational depression is a state of mind I find myself in from time to time. And I was experiencing one at my … Continue reading I see only what I want to see →

THE GREAT DEBATE: Book one 2019: Living Solo POST / DATE Set Yourself Free. August 26, 2019 Living Solo. August 28, 2019 Living Solo, II. September 01, 2019 Writing is Thinking. September 03, 2019 Thinking of Drinking. September 05, 2019 Writing is Thinking, II. September 09, 2019 Thinking of Drinking, II. September 16, 2019 … Continue reading Table Of Contents →

Father’s Day: five years later

Does it get any easier - the loss of the father? Short answer: no. Father's Day is a commercial ploy to make money. These days, what isn't? Nevertheless, the father is important. Because without him none of us would be here. My father was both a complicated and simple man. Simple because he was basically what a … Continue reading Father’s Day: five years later →