The last dream I had was March 17, 2022. It was about a friend, an old friend, one of my best friends. In the dream, he was digging a swimming pool foundation with a backhoe. As it came to pass, that was the night after he died. I had called three days before and he … Continue reading The Last Dream
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I see only what I want to see
Is lyrics to a song suggested to me via Spotify. Because I watched another 'suggestion' via YouTube. That was Jewel's live performance at Woodstock 99 of her first hit Who Will Save Your Soul. Situational depression is a state of mind I find myself in from time to time. And I was experiencing one at my … Continue reading I see only what I want to see
Table Of Contents
THE GREAT DEBATE: Book one 2019: Living Solo POST / DATE Set Yourself Free. August 26, 2019 Living Solo. August 28, 2019 Living Solo, II. September 01, 2019 Writing is Thinking. September 03, 2019 Thinking of Drinking. September 05, 2019 Writing is Thinking, II. September 09, 2019 Thinking of Drinking, II. September 16, 2019 … Continue reading Table Of Contents
George Bernard Shaw: “a Tolstoy with jokes”
It's true! Or a David Foster Wallace's Infinite Jest 100 years 'prior to'. I was introduced to Shaw's play Pygmalion (1914) sixty some years ago. When my mother took me by the hand and made me accompany her to My Fair Lady, a modern version of the theater performance, staring Julie Andrews and Rex Harrison. I can't recall … Continue reading George Bernard Shaw: “a Tolstoy with jokes”
Father’s Day: five years later
Does it get any easier - the loss of the father? Short answer: no. Father's Day is a commercial ploy to make money. These days, what isn't? Nevertheless, the father is important. Because without him none of us would be here. My father was both a complicated and simple man. Simple because he was basically what a … Continue reading Father’s Day: five years later
Creeping Toward Oblivion
is what I'm doing. All of us are (even the 1%). We resist and seek relief - honestly or dishonestly. Knowingly or unknowingly, consciously or unconsciously. We do this passively or actively via self-promotion with the goal being self-preservation. The Avenue or path, or road, are many. And our unique journey will vary. It could … Continue reading Creeping Toward Oblivion
Reasonable Objective Therapy
has come to this - drinking and making a wish. So it seems to me that the more things change - the more they stay the same. I've written a lot about writing and thinking, drinking, and therapy in this space. However, as far as I can tell to no avail. The collective psychosis continues. … Continue reading Reasonable Objective Therapy
Mood Swings
Yesterday was a mood swing day. However, I didn't take my usual walk, didn't drink, and had no social contact. It was just me and the weather and my 'luxury' apartment. But that includes my mind, as well as my smart TV and smart phone. And that can be overwhelming. Because now my mind can … Continue reading Mood Swings
Baseball 2020: Fall Frenzy
I was skeptical when major league baseball announced its plan to play a sixty game "regular" season and then the "Fall Frenzy" playoff format. Really, I thought. What with all the craziness of 2020 - Who cares?. The season began July 23rd, with the New York Yankees and the Los Angeles Dodgers being featured on ESPN. Because … Continue reading Baseball 2020: Fall Frenzy
Living at the Edge of the World: Homeless
Living at the Edge of the World is a story about a young girl who lived underground (mostly) for five years, in New York City, from 1986 to 1990. In her own words (mostly) with the help of journalist, Jamie Pastor Bolnick. President Donald Trump recently said he wants to put a woman on the moon … Continue reading Living at the Edge of the World: Homeless